Can't Figure it Out

Figure it out
So much time - wasted?
Trying to
figure
it - or myself - 
or this situation - 
or why I feel
like 
this - 
so many mental gyrations.
I wonder...
I beg, and ask
to be
led
to be
guided
to be 
loved
to 
living presently
living quietly
living honestly
all the time,
so that
now is forever.